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Thoughts on Thoughts

For just a moment think about your thoughts. Not your nice thoughts. Not your positive thoughts. Think about your dark thoughts; the ones you wouldn’t want to share. Have you ever been on a two lane road driving 65 M.P.H. and up ahead you see a truck coming in the opposite lane and you think, If I just turned my wheel a little to the left…that would be it. Have you ever been stopped by a train and found yourself staring at its large, slowly turning wheel and thought, What would it be like to be trapped under that thing? I have. Of course both of these thoughts are ridiculous, so why did I have them and where did they …

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Dear Younger Me

Dear younger me, Don’t worry so much, boy. The nails you’re biting and the thoughts you’re inviting are stealing your joy. What troubles you now you’ll soon be forgetting. I know because I am where you are heading. Try to enjoy your starts and stops; your amazing catches and unfortunate drops. Dear younger me, Take your foot off the gas and take a deep breath. Your youth will go fast and will die a quick death. But oh, what comes next I promise it’s greater. Savor each day, you’ll thank yourself later. God is not your center, but it’s okay He’ll wait. But if you’ll let Him in sooner, He’ll make the twisted straight. Dear younger me, Your joy is …

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I Am a Failure

Use failure to fertilize. ~ Byron Davis Incredibly, every time we look to the sky we’re looking at the past. Since light has to travel a great distance, whatever we see arrives after the event has occurred. The universe is a vast time machine. What if we saw our failures the same way? My name is Curt and I’m a failure. I have failed as a student, failed as an employee, failed as a husband, a son, a brother and a father. I have failed to forgive, failed to act and failed to accept responsibility. But I have not failed to learn. As I reflected on the past year, it occurred to me that 2014 – more than any other …